This few days so moody. Everyday work, home, kids. What else can I do? What do I want? What's my goals? Do I go on like this for the rest of my life?

Talk about work, 最大的障碍该是我的半桶水英文。讲也不好，写也不好。琐琐碎碎的事又多。其实也不该complaint la. 上司玛丽对我还不错啦！只是她有时很details,很kiasu. 什么市都要follow procedure,做什么都要black and white,cc 来cc去。就像梁志强的戏所说的，cc 代表 cover cachng. bcc 代表 better cover cachng. Because everything must be black and white, and cc the whole HR team, it become a stress to me, cos I have to write a better and proper English. Can't write short form or casual mail. It become very tedious. Other than that, 都还好。ＳＴＲＥＳＳ！

Home. Now staying with the in law, is convenience, but kids are growing, the house become smaller. The kids dont have a study environment and 4 persons in a room, so many things, so little space. when can I have my own house? The main issue here is not the money, is lots of other thing that I need to consider carefully. The kids arrangement, they have been living with big family since young, will they get use to the quiet home? What if I study or have something on at night, how should I arranged them to? What if they fall sick in the morning, I cant just leave them at home. So many issue, 烦。

And now the kids, how to make them to listen to me? I dont wish to see them to have bad company. I dont want them to get hurt or bully by other. They are too young, the people out there are so 阴险。I have to stop them from hanging out after school, but how to make sure that they dont lie to me? How to make them to be upright person? To have positive thinking? When will they understand that study is important? They have to work hard in order to success? I really dunno how to handle them, I can be talking and talking, telling them what can do, what cannot do,what is good, what is bad, but do they listen? Or just right ear in, left ear out?
I have to try my best, and hope they will understand one day.累

要到什么时候才能走出这烦人的日子！！